a ya ya, lagu ini memang udah basi. Dirilis bulan November 2005, trus gue baru heboh sekarang, gitu? Ke mana ajaaaa…

Biarin, belakangan ini gue lagi seneng2nya sama lagu ini, yang mana memang baru berhasil gue dapatkan di belantara MP beberapa hari yang lalu.

Waktu pertama kali denger lagu ini, kirain temanya nggak beda jauh sama "Because of You"-nya Keith Martin. Yah, nggak jauh dari gombal-gombalannya orang yang lagi cinta2an gitu deh! Tapi setelah gue dengerin sekali… dua kali… hmm… ntar dulu deh, kayaknya si Kelly Clarkson di lagu ini ngomongin hal yang sama sekali beda dengan Keith Martin. Coba deh simak lirik lagunya:

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Isi lagunya kayak lagi nyalahin seseorang gitu. Siapa sih yang dia maksud? Buat siapa sebenernya lagu ini ditujukan?

Feeling gue sih lagu ini ditujukan buat orang tuanya, tapi untuk lebih pastinya lebih baik nanya sama google, kan? Hm… gue mulai penasaran. Cari punya cari, akhirnya gue sampe di sebuah situs blogcritics.org yang mereview lagu ini dengan komentar sbb:

Clarkson details the emotionless person who raised her. If she was unsure of what to do and felt lost, she would be scolded for it. If she cried in front of the person, she would be berated for showing emotion.

Ok deh. mungkin bener lagu ini adalah curhat seorang Kelly Clarkson tentang orang tuanya, tapi biar lebih afdol mending kita simak interview di situsnya EMI Music Publishing:

Because Of You: written by Clarkson, Ben Moody, & David Hodges.

“‘Because Of You’ isn’t about breakups, it’s about my family. It is about growing up in a broken home. My parents were together for 17 years or so, and then all of the sudden, something went wrong. But I’ve talked to lots of friends who have seen domestic violence in their homes; I didn’t. But if you see those things as a child, you see a family member cheating or people not trusting each other or people not communicating with each other, that effects you. You end up afraid to trust people, because you think you’re going to get screwed over. Me and a friend of mine were up late one night talking about our lives, and it led to this song. I wrote it when I was 16, my friend was having a really hard time with her family. It was a different situation than mine, but I could relate to what she was going through. My parents were together for a long time, and suddenly one thing happens, and it’s over. That could happen to me. It made me feel like, why would I want to open up and trust someone? I know that it’s a childish way to look at it; life is a risk, and anything worth having is worth taking a risk for, but I wrote it when I was 16. I have learned a lot since then. At the same time, it doesn’t matter how old you are, you can still relate. I was 6 when my parents got divorced. I used to be the most closed off person. I didn’t want to get hurt. I had been messed over by friends, and I had been through a lot with my family. I didn’t pity myself, but I did put a wall up. I’m smarter now, but I have a good relationship with God, and that’s gotten better over the years. That’s why I’ve gotten smarter about situations. I’m a very trusting person now. I’m not going to let people screw me over left and right, but at the same time I’m not going to close myself off. That’s a big step for me.”

Pantesan lagu ini terasa begitu "real" – wong pengalaman pribadi penyanyinya. Tanpa terlalu harus terlalu disimak apa isi liriknya, Kelly Clarkson berhasil mengekspresikan kegetiran dan kemarahannya lewat permainan vokalnya. Bagian yang paling gue suka adalah:

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Kata-katanya keren abis! Dan lagu ini juga bukan lagu yang gampang untuk dinyanyiin iseng2 di karaoke, saking banyaknya bait-bait panjang yang bisa bikin kagok waktu mau narik nafas. Pemenggalan katanya juga terasa ‘aneh’ di beberapa bagian, tapi kok ya enak aja didenger. Contoh bagian yang ini nih, coba deh nyanyiin bagian yang ini tanpa denger lagu aslinya:

My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Kesimpulannya, sampe beberapa minggu mendatang kayaknya lagu ini masih bakalan menduduki tangga teratas di playlist winamp gue 🙂

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